I wanted to post about my advanced birthday celebration at Hard Rock Hotel, but to my horror, my photos were all of different sizes!!! So I need to spend the next few hours re-editing them again
I came across a website few days ago and read about the secret to happiness. I wasn’t planning on posting it on my blog, I had it copied down on paper instead. And now I can’t find the website anymore I thought that it really made sense so I decided to share it with everyone.
The secret to happiness is to stop caring.
For example, to solve the problem of not having cool friends is to stop caring about having cool friends. The search for happiness is the single greatest cause of misery. You can’t find something that is already there. Happiness exists now. It’s not something you have to find. That’s like trying to find your breath.
If you are not happy, it is because your mind doesn’t allow you to be happy. And that is because you are stuck in a vicious cycle of productivity, judgement and purpose.
By not caring, we immediately release ourselves of grasping of the mind. It is not easy and have to be cultivated.
For the past x months, I have been in a weird phase of constant down time, feeling moody almost everyday, etc. I don’t think anyone else would have realised but I know for sure, my boyfriend got it the worse because we spend most time together. I felt so bad that he had to put up with my nonsense behaviour but I cannot control my rampant outbursts. So I decided to seek help by self therapy (not sure if such a term exists) and to practice The Secret.
I wouldn’t say that I have 100% changed for the better but I am trying to constantly be aware of my emotions. For the past few days, I have been “black-facing” (the term dubbed by my poor boyfriend) lesser, but the feeling down part is taking a little more time to get rid of.
I am looking forward to going back to taking yoga classes because I think that it really helped with dealing with anger and negative feelings. I also try to sort my things out – pack my room, pack my boyfriend’s room, organise folders on my Macbook. It takes negative thoughts out of my mind when I’m doing something and when I see my things are in order and neat, I feel less irritated and am almost instantly in a better mood.
School is starting next week and I’m worried that I will fall into this nonsensical behaviour or have it worsened because whenever I get stressed, especially due to tight deadlines, I feel like I’m going to burst :/
I have not talked about my nonsensical behavior to anyone yet. As of now, my boyfriend is the only one who knows and is experiencing it (sorry, baby). I thought I might just wanna blog about it and share it with you all. I hope you all won’t think that I am crazy or something!!